Friday, December 31, 2010

We are Not Alone

We are Not Alone

Ironically, I don’t like to suffer alone, but do not like to have anyone touch me while I am suffering a panic attack. Don’t ask me why, it’s just the way it is. Usually the scene unfolds of me sitting on a chair or couch and I’m fidgeting in some sort of way, trying in vain to hold still and needing someone – anyone – to sit with me. Just their presence helps me to calm down quicker than if I were alone when a panic attack hits. I think this is part of the reason why I don’t like to drive long distances alone. I sometimes have to call either my mother or husband to talk to me as I drive (on the speaker phone of course! I am always safe) so that I can calm down enough to keep driving.

I wanted to know if anyone “famous” suffered from panic and anxiety and I found this list. I was astounded and surprised at the many famous and distinguished people who suffered from anxiety and panic. Some I could see them as panic sufferers, but others not so much.

I am hoping that 2011 will bring the end of my panic attacks. I am tired of fighting my way out of wet paper bag as I am sure everyone on the list above is too.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The Jits

Tonight I've got the jits. I don't know why either. I've been pretty good lately, but these last few days, I've been a bit on edge. Maybe because I have a lot to do and very little time to do it in. Maybe it's because I spent too much money tonight. I really don't know. I've been getting little mini panic attacks throughout the day.

I just read online that if you are having a panic attack, tell yourself you've had them before and survived others and this is no different. Then you should laugh as that will help to thwart the attack and make it less to deal with. So I've been laughing out loud. My husband and cats have been eyeing me curiously. They may have to commit me sooner or later to the funny farm.... I'm sure I'll get lots of laughing done there!

I just wish this would get better and I hope that finding the humour in all this will help. And yes, I still feel like I'm fighting my way out of a wet paper bag.